Anni’s Diary – September 2005

August 26, 2007 Kamala Amma's Grace, Anni's Diary

Dearest Friends and Family,
We found this little list of “Aspirations” in Anni’s Diary that we wanted to share with you all. As a family, we often talked about what we thought were our shortcomings, the reactions or feelings we had that we did not feel we could honestly be proud of in front of Our Beloved Indweller. We also tried to look with naked eyes at the external things we were doing with our time to see if they were actually helpful or not to our higher purposes. If they were not, we took decisions to change them. We did not make vows with each area of lassitude, vows are for harder things…but, we aspired to change ourselves in small ways. This work still goes on, as we all try to battle negative thinking. The advantage of living in the ashram, is that there is a lot of support in thinking in these ways.
The date is not given. The next entry is dated September 2, 2005. She would have been 16. So it was before that. The entry has a few doodles of plants, Omkara, and suns and stars. Text is as given in her diary:

ASPIRATIONS:
*To think positive
*To meet everyone with love and kindness
*Not to say bad about anyone
*Not to gossip (I rarely do anyways)
*Count 3 good things about everyone who is repelling to look at (gonna need help w/this one)
*To remember that God is in everyone (me too)
*Keep this goal in mind
*Not find fault in others
*Don’t blame others for your own faults

Having reviewed this, we again take heart to try to instill these concepts, oft discussed, into our psyches.
Loving you,
Kamala Aunty, Anni and Link